Joy

I talked to my kids on Skype today. It was the best 30 minutes ever. Hearing their little voices was so emotional and so wonderful. I, of course, got off the phone and cried.

Cried because I was so overcome with joy.

Cried because I miss them.

Cried because I love them so much and want so desperately to be with them.

Cried because this disease is supposed to be killing them one day at a time, but instead God has filled them with so much energy and life.

Cried because God is so good, and I'm so blessed to be a part of the bigger picture.

When did this happen, and why did he choose me? I'm so broken and sinful and need his grace just like everyone else. And somehow part of His plan was for me to be let in on these wonderful things He is doing halfway across the world. An AIDS orphanage is supposed to be a sad, horrendous place where children go to suffer and die and people turn away their eyes because they can't bear to see the injustice of it all. But instead it's this place of life and of hope, and I am so honored to have been a part of it.

I am so humbled. And so grateful. God is worthy of all the praise and glory.